Feast of the Exaltation of the Holy Cross September 2018
THEN I WAS EXHAUSTED TODAY I AM EXALTED!
It was on the Feast of the Exaltation last year, Sunday September 17, 2017 that I entered the hospital which resulted in a 6 month stay, leading me to Tufts Medical Center where I was ultimately given two heart pumps VADs (Ventricular Assist Devices) following a horrific ordeal which left me on the precipice of life and death. I am so deeply thankful for this experience and feel the miracle of Christ’s suffering and the profound mystery of His Cross in my life in a way that I could never before have understood it, having been practically immersed in His Blood soaked mercy. I truly communed with the suffering Christ and saw, and continue in, the glory beyond His Holy Cross.
On that day, one year ago, I was quite literally unable to Exalt the Cross at the conclusion of Badarak (Divine Liturgy) and asked my deacon Gevork to do it for me as I was quickly failing in strength and breath, with my heart ejecting only 5% of its blood on each pump and unknown to me, having kidneys which were quite literally on the brink of all out failure and a liver which was close to shutting down as no oxygen was being carried to my organs.
While a year ago I was exhausted, today on this Feast of the Exaltation I am, like the Holy Cross, exalted with the Glory of God. By His glorious and majestic power I was so gratefully able to exalt his Holy Cross, decorated with Basil the Royal Herb, with my weak and unworthy hands.
I am as thankful to all of you for your continued support, love and prayers as much as I am for my Lord who sustains me and has revealed Himself to me in ways that I could not possibly have perceived without becoming so weak and dependent upon Him even for every breath that I took throughout the ordeal. Today, my organs have fully healed and are functioning well. I feel warmth in my body and hands. Praise be to our Lord Jesus Christ!
Before your Holy Cross O Lord do I humble myself and bow down before your majesty.
Prayerfully Der Shnork Souin, Pastor